Christmas is right around the corner. I’m in a new state, a new city, completely on my own. I don’t know anyone around here, and I won’t be celebrating Christmas with anyone. So… am I lonely this holiday season?

Nope. Not at all. I am exceedingly happy. And grateful. And fulfilled.

I’ve spent the last three weeks watching God make my dreams come true. I wanted to travel the country and experience new adventures. I did. I wanted to move to a warmer climate and more populous area. I have. I wanted to successfully get my book published and begin selling it. I am. Though I don’t have life all neatly put together, my dreams are coming true. And it was all in God’s timing, not my own. If it were in my timing, this would have happened 15 or 20 years ago. But God’s plan was better (duh). He knew that I needed to be free and on my own first before experiencing great blessing. That way, my fruit wouldn’t be eaten by anyone robbing me of my health and sanity.

I look forward to Christmas. By myself, and by my own choosing, I’ll attend one (or two) Christmas Eve church services so I can worship my God with other believers. Then, by myself, I’ll stay at my most favorite spot in the city I’ve found so far. I’ll sleep in. I’ll enjoy my beautiful surroundings. I’ll explore the city some more. While other families will be opening presents and eating a big meal, I’ll be filling my soul with God’s beauty and peace. It may, in fact, be the first time in a long time that I’ll open the bible up and read.

Happy Holidays

Being alone for the holidays isn’t lonely. I was lonely for more than 20 years, being married to a man who didn’t know me and didn’t take the time to learn who I was… that was lonely! I let him consume my life and cover up my essence. My identity became him and nothing more. That was very, very lonely.

This Christmas, I am alone, and I am so happy!